Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Wow, my cup of joy can overflow no further. I have actually managed to pack in one more miscarriage. Someone up there must really love me.

65 Comments:

Blogger ~nm said...

Hey! I don't know what to say but I wish I could hug you right now!
A big tight "HUG"

P.S. I don't know you neither do you! But I can truly understand your feelings

10:40 AM  
Blogger hari said...

Akka,
I don't have words to share your agony. What more can I say than that I and my wife are still going it. So be brave, thats it.

11:53 AM  
Blogger Just like that said...

:-( ohmigod, what IS going SO wrong?

I dunno what I can say, except that I really really hope you've reached the end of the tunnel, my dear Akka. A gentle, big, long hug.

3:39 PM  
Blogger timepass said...

Extremely sorry to hear about ur loss. We share our wedding day and the loss of our babies. Only a person facing a similar calamity can understand the pain of losing a child and I can understand and feel what u are going through. They say that wounds heal over a period of time but surely in our case our wounds will be with us till we die. God is surely trying out our patience cause he knows we will bear such blows. Hopefully there are good times lined up in the future. Take care

8:27 PM  
Anonymous Ramamurthy said...

Dear madam

I am much older than you,may be even your father's age.
Your writings brought tears to my eyes.
No one should go through what you suffered.
You are in my prayers.The darkest hour is before dawn.
With blessings and best wishes.

8:52 PM  
Blogger kiwilax said...

Akka: can you give me ur email address. Ta

6:56 AM  
Blogger der Bergwind said...

words.. do they really soothe u? do they really take away the pain n hurt? i dunno.. it has never taken the sting for me.. but ya, all i realize is that in the madness of life... we always fall short of someone who is in greater pain and again for no fault of theirs!!
i had my reasons. i still have... for having howled yesterday... asking .. the classic question- why me??? of all damned people!! but all i feel rite now, is a vacuum inside.. like a selfish lil boy- myopic!

am never gud at emotional warmth.. all i can say is pick urself up and get ready for the next acid test.. whatever life hurls at u... and ya.. love never dies.. maybe its just waiting for a beau form to come to u...
sound of silence... and all my heart goes out to u.. rise and shine..

12:50 PM  
Blogger Collection Of Stars said...

I am so sorry akka. Since I read about your mother's death, you have been on and off in my thought and everytime I have prayed for you. Take care ...

3:40 PM  
Blogger Anu said...

Akka..

Sorry.. just know that people around the world are sending good vibes your way.. life will turn ard soon.. just watch

11:19 PM  
Blogger Nee said...

Akka - I don't know what to say...but please know that there are a bunch of us here who are praying for you. I just know things have GOT to change for the better.

*Hugs*
Nee

8:41 PM  
Blogger Itchingtowrite said...

hi IA,
I am so sorry for your loss. take care.

10:50 AM  
Blogger Just Like That said...

Akka, good morning, and you have a nice day today.

10:57 AM  
Blogger The Visitor said...

I didn't know how to respond to your post Akka. I hope that you are recovering both physically and mentally from the trauma that you've undergone.

10:46 PM  
Blogger Usha said...

Am at a loss for words. Please stay strong.
Now I understand why you commented the way you did on my recent post.
It will get better.Please stay strong.

9:59 AM  
Blogger Anand Ramamoorthy said...

Dear Akka,
I am but a speck in the universe, and not known to you beyond a few meetings, but please take my word for it and know that irrespective of 'someone up there', there are people 'down here' who care about you, self included.
I can mumble reassuring things and move on, but all I wish to say is I think of you and your brother almost daily, and find myself paralysed by emotion atleast for a few moments....
I may be a relative nobody, but I am there for you and Dinesh. Please mail me if you wish to.
Take care

SARVAM SRIKRISHNAARPANAMASTHU!

7:18 PM  
Blogger Vidhur said...

Dear IA,

My heart goes out to you. Lots of hugs.

When you see red or feeling blue,
Smile and say " I WILL get thru'

Do take care of your health.

11:57 AM  
Blogger Gauri said...

Oh Akka !!

What can I say. I really really feel for you.

May God give you strength to tide over these times. And yes, where He closes a door, He does open a window.

Things will work out Akka, they really will.

My prayers are always with you.

Stay strong.

Hugs

Gauri

8:05 PM  
Blogger Sush said...

hugs and kisses!!

9:52 PM  
Blogger Hip Grandma said...

Don't lose hope.This cannot continue forever.There is bound to be a complete turn around

10:35 AM  
Blogger Poppins said...

I thought I had put a comment here.. Never mind. I just don't know what to say Akka. But have you had your thyroid checked?

*Hugs*

3:09 PM  
Blogger Vidhur said...

Hi,
I left a comment earlier. U R in my thoughts. God bless !

5:37 PM  
Blogger Ardra said...

take care...one of those times when i wished I had a magic wand...
luv and prayers
ardra

10:56 AM  
Blogger Mosilager said...

Hugs from me and the GingaBoo. My condolences.

6:14 AM  
Blogger Siddhu said...

Akka, my condolences. :(

I'm really sorry to hear of this!

3:42 PM  
Blogger ashok said...

be strong...Things will turn around...

9:27 PM  
Blogger Cantaloupes.Amma (CA) said...

Hi Akka ... pls be strong ... I just don't know what to say !

8:59 AM  
Blogger serendipity said...

:) I will pray that you have a child that will solve ALL your problems and you have the best life ever!
Please don't worry :)

1:34 PM  
Blogger The_Girl_From_Ipanema said...

Dear Akka,
I just see your posts. I am terribly terribly sorry to see what all you are going through. I don't know what else to say, but hope that you find the strength and wish for a gradual healing for you and your family. Take care.

9:47 AM  
Blogger Raju said...

S, came here after a long time and was shocked and saddened to know of your terrible year. My thoughts are with you at this time. I donno what words of consolation I can give you. I really hope and wish your bad days are over and gone. Just weather this temporary storm and everything will be OK.

Take care.

5:03 AM  
Anonymous Sandhya Tennjavascript:void(0)eti said...

Hi,

Just came across your blog- you are in my prayers.I have no doubt that you will overcome these tough times. I pray for the inner healing of you and your family.

take care,

9:28 PM  
Blogger mommyof2 said...

I am so sorry for your loss. You will be in my prayers. Hugs

7:10 PM  
Blogger Janefield said...

These are testing times and I wish you strength and courage. God bless and good wishes and prayers and vibes coming your way.

1:09 AM  
Anonymous Love n hugs said...

Dont worry Akka...You will be fine

I dont know if this is a right occasion to wish you but Happy birthday Akka .Hope this year is better for you

1:21 PM  
Blogger Karthik Sriram said...

I. Akka,

I don't know you - just saw your blog and wanted to tell you - after all these pains, something better (I know it might sound cliched) is in store for you.

God Bless!


LKS

8:40 PM  
Blogger Raju said...

Happy Birthday S!! Had d same concern as Love'n Hugs.. May this year mark the beginning of better times!

2:14 AM  
Blogger SS said...

I am so sorry. Hugs.

10:39 PM  
Anonymous Broom said...

Hi IA,

I just got here for the first time and I'm really sorry for your loss. For all your losses.

I hope that happier times and climes visit you soon.

Hugs.
Broom

11:55 PM  
Blogger anand said...

Supri,
do not loose heart. Its time to turn to spiruatility to avoid disappointment. All these flowery words can never lead you to truth.

Consider meditation.

I am sure that you will be blessed with a great child.

I will not pray, but bad things cannot happen to good people always.


Anand

7:05 PM  
Anonymous aargees said...

I just came across your blog. I am very sorry about your loss and I am sure God definitely had good things in store for you. Be brave!

3:07 PM  
Anonymous aargee said...

oh! Iam so sorry for the earlier post.;I meant God HAS ( not had) good things in store for you..how a single letter changes the whole meaning.;iam very sorry about that

10:00 PM  
Blogger Tharini said...

IA....its been a while since u updated. Wondering how you are doing. I can't find an email for you here, wud have mailed u otw....just write in sometime ok?

winkiesways@gmail.

Or update the blog. Soon.

8:44 PM  
Blogger Gabriel said...

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http://unrepentantcommunist.blogspot.com/

I hope you will be able to link our blog to yours.

Greetings to all progressives reading this from County Kerry in Ireland!
Gabriel

6:57 PM  
Blogger the wannabe indian punkster said...

*hug*

12:24 AM  
Blogger timepass said...

Wishing U a Happy Wedding Anniversary..Am sure the coming year has only and only good things in store for u...Best Wishes

7:42 AM  
Anonymous ddmom said...

Dear IA, Here for the first time, Terribly sorry to hear all that's happened with you. No words an take the pain away, hope extending one more hug will ease it a tiny bit. I feel guilty writing this, but time does heal to some extent. At least to the point of letting us live a close to normal life. I lost my first baby at 20 weeks of pregnancy, my second one was born with an apgar of 0, breathed at 7 minutes. She is doing fine now. Third pregnancy I tripped and fell on my stomach at 24 weeks pregnancy, she is 3 months old now. I don't know why I am writing all this, just felt like..
As others have said, please continue writing and venting out. Having a wonderful group of friends to vent out helped me a lot. Sending hugs to you.

10:00 AM  
Blogger dame's diary said...

Akka,
Please... hang in there.
Hugs and prayers
DD

10:33 PM  
Blogger Laksh said...

Hugs! Reading your post really put my agonies in perspective. I hope you are holding up Ok.

11:18 PM  
Blogger Shobana said...

Hey,

hang in there and big hugs from the blogosphere...pls take care of urself and keep blogging...

Shobana

5:42 AM  
Blogger Thinking aloud said...

hey...u struck a chord...hang in there...every cloud has a silver lining....

3:09 PM  
Blogger Rohini said...

I am so sorry for your losses. It's a really trying time for you... not much more to say but pass on a big virtual hug

5:38 PM  
Blogger Collection Of Stars said...

Hey Akka, have not heard from you in a long time. How are you doing and hope everything is fine?

5:49 PM  
Blogger Shobana said...

Akka, hope you are doing fine. Please do update and let us know how things are coming along at your end.

8:28 PM  
Anonymous Deepa said...

Akka, write.

6:05 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi,
My name is Sangeetha and I passed out of psbb in 94. Praveena Devarajan was my biology teacher - She was an amazing woman who touched many lives. What happened is so unfair - But hang in there and be positive. I live in philadelphia - If you visit the US, do stop by at our place.

Warm regards,
Sangeetha
SSSD@hotmail.com

8:36 PM  
Blogger hari said...

Akka,
Where are u. We require you here, because we want to be for you to lean upon.

3:56 PM  
Blogger Suki said...

:hugs:

I'm really sorry you had to go through that, and are still going through that.
Thank you for dropping by my space... hope to see you back to blogging soon. I understand that you need your space and strength right now, I just hope you will be back when you feel ready.

11:18 AM  
Blogger Janefield said...

hi akka, hope things are doing better with you.

wishing you peace and joy and good health this coming year.

12:10 AM  
Anonymous The Visitor said...

Dear Akka,
Hope you've overcome your grief and are now living life. How is Dinesh? Where is he now?
Regards
Visitor

2:39 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I once wrote a small post on happiness..how simple things in life make me so happy, and I circulated it to a whole lot of people. The very next day, I lost my job, and also had to have a throat surgery. All within 20 days of writing that. I don't know why things happen, but I still naively believe there's something better in store. Someone said "count your blessings"..probably sounds cruel when one is going through a rough patch, but it does help a teeny weeny bit. Take care..
Regards,
Pal
www.writerzblock.wordpress.com

12:16 AM  
Anonymous The Visitor said...

Akka - Life goes on - how are things NOW?

Visitor

11:17 AM  
Blogger Tashi said...

Hi, I just came across your blog, and this post really upset me. Through all our joys and sorrows, there is a God who will strengthen us. He will give you the courage to live through this difficult moment. Will pray for you. Take care and God Bless!

12:18 AM  
Blogger Ekta said...

Akka,
been here after ages and cldnt resist commenting...
Its never easy to deal with these things....no matter what I or anyone says...only the one who goes thru it knows what its like...
All I can pass on is a big hug..hoping it bring some strength to u!

11:09 AM  
Blogger itchingtowrite said...

we must be psychic- believe it or not i was just thinking of u do=uring lunch time! and i come bck and see u hav commented on my blog
wanted to mail u right back but cudn't find an id

3:15 PM  
Blogger mysterious_malady said...

Happy Anniversary !

9:47 PM  
Blogger AMIT said...

Nice blog from you.

Lingerie Alley

12:24 PM  

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